:-/

Falling HEAD OVER HEELS for you .

C4liph .

Caliphhhh:-*

I get chills and butterflies when I talk of you .
I get cold feet and weak knees when you hold me .
I hate when Im away from you .
And I love every moment being with you .
Who woulda thought .
I'd fall this hard over youu .

New Loveee ?

So Caliph seems like he's the one .
I like really really like him .
I hate being away from him .
I love being around with him .
I love when he hugs and holds me .
He's young than me tooo .
Like two years younger I think .
Maybe even three , since Ill be 18 soon .
But age aint nothing but a NUMBER .
He he acts more mature thn the older niggas I know .
So thats a GOOD NOTE .
I want him to by my boyfriend .
But then I keep thinking negative .
I told myself to follor my HEART .
Which is being with him .
But thn ppl say your heart stirs you wrong .
And I dont want this to be wrong .
Idk what to doooo .
Ima talk to him .
And tell him how I feel .
And we'll go from that .
And its sadd because his homies want me too .
Smh .
I hate that shitt .
But I love you Caliph .
Well lust you .
Because its too realy to LOVE you .

C4liphhhhh:-*

Smh at you Froggy .

& I thought you were different .
But seems like your JUST LIKE THE REST .
Its soooo saddd .
Because you went on and on about how REAL you were .
Sorry sweetie .
But you NO WHERE near it .

To the MAN .

To the MAN I thought was real .
To the MAN I though was there for me .
To the MAN I thought was the one for me .
To the MAN I thought was different from the others .
To the MAN I thought I could of lived my life with .
To the MAN I thought wouldnt play me or lie to me .
To the MAN I thought cared for my feelings .
To the MAN I thought was the MAN I wanted .
To the MAN I though was the MAN .
To the MAN , thank you .
For letting me knowwwww .
That there is still YET to come more men .
Like youuuu .
When I thought you'd be different .
You proved me wrong .
You proved yourself wrong .
Black , handsome , young men .
Why ?
Why do you treat your beautiful , black , young women the way you do ?
But thank you so muchhh .
For making ME realize that life inst a FAIRY TALE .

Last night with Drake .

: ) : ) : ) : ) : ) : )
Last night was the BEST .
Drake is the BEST .
LA is the fucking BEST .
Words cant explain how much fun I had .
My night was spectacular .

Today was great .

Today was great .
Today was great .
Today was great .
Today was great .
Had alot of funnn .
Morning started off kinda cool .
The day went very well .
Was with Froggy today :)
I fucking love himm .
And my bro Thuggy .
I love him toooo .
Alot of ppl was at the Bazaar .
It went well .
No fights .
No drama .
Today went well .
Finally , a day without DRAMA .
Hoepfully the weekend is better .
Tomorrow night I go see Drake & R.Leslie .
Can't waitttt .
Ohh & I got asked to Manuel Prom .
But my perants said I couldnt go .
Oh well , I aint tripping .
It was the same night of Drake .
And I really didnt wanan miss that .
Welppp .
Im done .
Nothing more to dayy .
Oh waittt .
bLayne said him and his ex-gF may get back 2gether .
Oh well .
I aint tripping .
Ima always be in the back of his mind .
Welppp .
Goodnight .

History .

It's 2OO9 now , and I'll be 18 in November .
Looking at old pictures , and old friends .
Smh . Lol .
Ive been there , and done that .
Everything yall doing noww .
Pu$haz , F1lthyz , NikeINC , Savageeee , ETC .
Who started that shitttt ?
Who started the click , family , ent , inc , shitt .
My homies , my brothers , my family .
"H O L L Y W O O D" bby .
Then my bro's "RudeBoys" .
Then me and my girls , "Sassidys" .
Like if it wasnt for HOLLYWOOD .
You people would be nothingg .
And I admit it .
HOLLYWOOD put me on the map in LA .
ANd I love them for thatt .
It's always gone be H-WOOD or nothingg .
Anysways .
All you NEW bootys .
All I do is LAUGH at yall .
I remember when I use to be on the scene .
I remember the days of all that FUN and LAUGHTER .
And waittt , bck thn I was ONLY like 14 and 15 .
Like wtffff .
I was turning shit up at 14 and 15 .
Eighth grade and Ninth grade were the BEST years .
Everybody that was my "family," and/or friends back than .
Aint even "family," and/or friends NO MOREEE .
Aint that somethinggg .
I aint been on the scene for a whileee .
Probi like two years and some months ?
Idk whyyy ?
Ive been on my getting money and school shit .
But this is MY year .
I'll be 18 this yearr .
So yall will SEE me again .
Back on the MY scene .
Yeaa , im real COCKY .
Cuhks I made a couple of you ppl who you are todayy .
But I LOVE yall all .
Even my enemeis back then .

Jay 3 .

Been there , Done that .

Yall just repeating MY history .

Tonighttt .

Today was niceeeeee .
So Darryl knows I like him , smh .
Kaliph is the BEST , and I like him too , smh .
He's young thouuu , in the 9th gradee .
Ima go to JAIL , lol .
But he's cool .
We started OFF on the wrong foot .
Didnt even like eachotherr .
I wanted somebody to beat him up .
And he wanted somebody to beat me upp .
But nowwwww .
Thats my little boo , ad hopefully my FUTURE .


Well my CAVS lost : (
Oh welll , that was GAME ONE .
We got the rest of emm .
Mr. West on the CAVS : )


bLayne , I LOVE you babe :-*
Anddd I really miss you .


Im start NOT to like vJones anymore .
He's a little too thristy for meee , Smh .

GOODNIGHT

Today .

Seen RAMON .
He loves meeeee .
On the phone with Imari & Unknown boy .

Yesterday was CRAZY

Soooo I met a BOY .
His name is BAD GUY .
Like what type of name is that .
He from FOETYS , smh .
He's straight , I love his tatts and piercings .
And he got BODYYYY , :)
I was like BADBUY ,
and he was like you tryna be a BADGIRL ,
And I said Im already a BAD GIRL .
And he smiled and laughedddd .
Then he put his arms around meee .
And then he blow kissed to meee .
I know thats all game thou .
I aint stupidddd bro .
But Ima GAME him up before he can GAME me up .



Smh , and BANGGGGG came to the school .
He's soooo stupidddd .
Ughhh , I hate himmm now .
But I truely do LOVE his ass , lol .
He always smiling at meee .
I love his smiles .
But I gotta get over himmm .
Orrr just move onnn .
Who knows , he may COME BACK .



And I asked bLayne is he wants to
come somewhere with me and my parents .
He saiddd "PARENTS ," Lmaoo .
I love you bLayneeee . Lol .

Tuesdays CST

US History throwOFF .
I dont know shittttt .
I know Ima FAIL this one .
Smh , I dont remember History .

Homegirls Sex Buddy ....

Sooooo I had sex with my homegirls sex buddy .
And NOW she's a little upset .
Not because I had sex with him .
But because she LIKED him .
But he doesnt like her .
He just wanted to SMUPPPP and sex .
he likes me and wants me to be his GIRL .
Idk what to do .
She knows about ittt .
And hasnt confronted me about it .
I wnat her too .
She I be the REAL WOMAN and do it .
OR just leave it aloneeee .

Mondays CST

English Exam .
It was straight .
ALOT of reading .
But I did it .
Well most of it .

Yesterdays THOUGHTS

Soooo yesterday Vincent said Raven and Justin
was catering to the "white bitch." And I was like
that white bitch is you girl. And he was like
NO SHE NOT. So I said who's your girl then.
And he said YOU ARE, referring to ME.
Nowwww idk what to sayy.
He believes IM HIS GIRL.
But im trying to MOVE ON.
To bLyaneeeee JUNIOR.

:-/

vJones

VS.

bLayne






Torn between the TWO .

(:

Seen bLayne yesterdayyy .
Damn its been some years .
He looks the same .
He said I look the same .
I love him more noww (:
His hugs are the BEST .



bLaynee :-*

(:

Seen Vincent todayyyy :-D .
I love himmmmmmmmmmmmmm .

True Loveee (:

Me : Goodnight and I love you Vincent Jones , even when I hate you .

Vincent : Goodnight babygirl and I love you too and gone always love you and thats my word .





I love you with ALL my heart Vincent , no matter what baby .
I gave you 4our years of my LIFE , Im not gonna let US go that easy .

Today was funnn .

Irritated in the AM ,
Happy in the PM .
Seen my brothers ,
Jay and Daivon todayy .
I love them too much .
Seen Ty today too (: ,
He's a little cutieeeeeee .
Everybody was up at the
school todayyy , Smh .
Havent talk to BJ all-day .
Aint even tripping off him now .
Im back on Vincent ass , Smh .
Me and Vincent argued today too .
He just dont know what he wants .
But ima try and chill offa Vincent .
Lmaooooo , If your girl only knew .
I know I was grimmey for that ,
but I was b4 herrrr , SOOOOOOO .
Oh welllllll , he dont want her anyways .
I seen Charles today toooo (: (: (: (: (:
Ive missed his little lyteskinn ass .
And Chazz texted meee today .
Pshhhhhh , idk whyyyyy ?
Well Im done for nowwwww .
Probi have some juice laterr .

Todays Thoughts .

Today was a cool dayyyy .
Im like soooo DONE with Deric .
He's not on my level at alllll .
Mommy texted me and said "I love youu."
I love her toooooo much moreee .
I seen JMACC today :) .
And then Devinn Jones came to my school .
I hate him right now tooo .
He's NOT on my level neither .
Went to Burger King as usual .
Then went homeee .
Walk in the house and my attitude came .
Sperm donor , big sister , and Ashley
watching a movie like a little "family."
And I walked in and it was like ,
Jamieee , the stepdaughter is hereee .
Idc bout know of themm , specially Jimmy and Ashley .
Big sister , I loverrr her . But I have my days .
And todayyyy ,
me and Bryceeee (: .
Didnt make it official butt , we WILL .
He wants meeee as bad as I want himmm .
And were gonna be in a RELATIONSHIP finally .
Talked to Vincenttt too ): .
He dissappoints meee still .
Thoughts done right nowww .
Be Back Laterrrrr (:

Glenn Austin Music .

" Cool , laid back attitude , no drama . And she got mood swings , but that aint a problem . "

-CandyDream .

(:

LittleJamieeee : You still have those wrist bands ?

bLayneeee: U talkin bout the rubberbands ??

LittleJamieeee: Yeaaa .

bLayneeee: I have 2 on ryte now lmao

LittleJamieeee: Lol , awwww I want them again .

LittleJamieeee: Lol .

bLayneeee: Hahaha ok .

bLayneeee 32

Your my Candy Dreammmmmm (:
& Ever since you been in my life ,
You been on my minddd :-* .

Todays thoughts .

This morning I was really really irritated .
Because of that ichy ass sub teacher !
I hate when they find out im Belizean and
say "We no raise like that .
" Like SO WHAT !
I wasnt raised in belize .
Ima CITY GIRl bitch !
Anyways , my so cal boyfriend , well my school
boyfriend , is becoming a bitch in my book .
He's NOT man enough for me .
I gues BJ was righttt .
He's the only man for mee :-D .
And Im the only REAL lady for him :-* .
Anyways , the rest of my day was cool .
Alot of these bitches niggas keep eyeing .
Im be a "Good Girl" like Kelli Renee say ,
and tell these bitches "Yo looking at me ."
Left school at 7th perioddd .
For the first timeeeeeee in history .
Didnt chill after school cuhks , wow me .
KS said Hi to me todayyy , LMFAOOO .
I'll write a blog about him laterr .
Thats gone take up alot of my timeee .
He's such ASS nigga .
Then I got homeee .
Lowball arguing with my bestfriend cuhks
that bitch said she was giving away my
DRAKE ticket to some bitch i DONT like cuhks .
But she notttt :-D .
Oh && BJ gon be there tooo .
Cant waittt to be with him :-) .
Im really falling for him again .
Damn yall see how in love I was with Vincent .
BJ was b4 Vincent .
When I was in 7th gradeeee .
Mannnn :-) :-) :-) :-) :-) .
ANyways Im done for the nighttt .

Duecessss (:

Little bit in love with youuu .

Damnnnn , I fell in love with you in 7th grade .
Now May 1Oth , 2OO9 in 11th grade ,
I find youuuu , & Ive missed youuu .
Damnnnnnn BJ , where have you been ?
I know I played around back then ,
but your LittleJamieee has grown upp .
And Im ready noww .
You said you want a girl that'll stand by for everything ,
in other words "RIDA ," you looking at one baby .
Soooo just know "when you done with the hoes,
and wanna roll with a real bitch , ill be right here waiting ."








BLJ :-*

Mommy .

Words cant explain anything I want to say ,
not even "I love you ," because I more then
love you . I adore you . I cherish you . I praise
you . Although we may fuss and fight ALL the
time . I will never hold a grudge towards you .
You mean everything to me . I'd drop any and
everything for you . Idk what I'd do if I lose you .
You are truely "irreplaceable ." I love you Mommy ,
and Happy Mothers Days .

&& HappyMothersDays to all the mothers .

Bonnie & Clyde

I loveeee you T4 .
You always gone be my nigga ,
& yeaa I'll always be yo bitch .
We go wayyyyyy back cuhks .
Been through A LOT tooo .
Its more then a relationship .
It's a beautiful friendship .
No matter what happens .
I got you back , cuhks you got mines .
I'll love you forever and ever .

T4 . & Mrs . T4

Happier thn EVER .

Drake , May 23rd . :-D

Goodmorning .

Today is the " Day b4 Mother's Day Brunch . "
With the lovely women and mothers in my life .
And to the women that made this all possible .
Grandma , I love you more then everything .
Your tatted , Lol .
Well you and my mother have the same name .
But your guys are both tatted on my heart .
Today this brunch is about celebrating the mothers .
And the men , fathers , sons, nephews , brothers serve us .
They serve the women .
That'll be a nice picture , Lol .
I love the women in my life .

All I see is Black and White .

Someone help me see the color .

Goodnight .

I wanna dream about my life .
Dream about my future .
Dream about the happiness I want .
Dream about the one I love , and loves me .
Dream about him .
But there is no him .
Guess ima dream about the "dream him ."

Goodnightttt & SweetDreams .

WAKE UP Women .

Ima write a book about women .
How stupid they are .
How they let men walk over them .
Like I mean everybody has been there .
I've been there .
BUT , I've learned .
And I want my fellow "black" women to learn .
Never let a man walk over you .
Its so degrading for me to see this .
And me being only 17years old realizing this .
It's crazy .
And the "women" I know that are 21 and upp .
Still acting like their in High School .
And MENNN , please .
We are your mothers , and sisters , and daugthers .
TREAT US LIKE YOU'D TREAT YOUR MOTHER .
Like the Queen we are .
The Queen we should be .
It reall hurts me to seen women hurt and degraded .
And to the women thats KNOW that their "man" is doing them wrong .
And they still STAY ?
Likeeee , really are you that low of a person .
Im down with these boys that think they mans .
Im not saying im too good for anybody .
BUT I know for a fact that I deserve BETTER then what I get .
And MY women out here deserve better .
Jamie , Alex , Raven , Meghan , Shanae , Brooke, and Lucy , all my lovely ladies .
We deserve better .
We deserve better .
We deserve better .

):

I honestly think ourrelationship is going to change .
Like , I wont be able to expect this shit .
My heart wont let me .
Like , mannnn , this shit hurting me .
& idk whyyy ?
Im going crazy mannn .
Idk what to doooooo .

Idk what to say

My cousin is now moving into a place with my ex-boyfriends NEW girlfriend.
Like what type of shit is that cuhks .
Like , I dont even know what to say .
Like , & my cousin expect me to be cool with her .
I mean I aint gone like wanna fight her and shit .
But I aint gone be able to talk to her .
Like , W T F >:o .
Idk . Idk . Idk . Idk . Idk .
Likeeeee wtf kinda shit is that .

Smh .

Their not neccessarily getting to me .
It's just , I'm tired of it .
Like they really need to grow up .
Like , wtf .
Are you still in Junios High .
N O !
Were in High School .
At least act like it .
But I aint gone trip .
Because when the times comes .
We will ALL know the truth .
And if Im right .
I'll be on the sideline , laughing my ass off .
Yes , I'll probi be hated or whatnot .
But Im already one of the MOST HATED people in LA .
So a little more FANS wont hurt ( :

Forever and ever .

Jamie Jolie , HATED ; for what ?

Realizing Reality .

Sooooo ,
Ive told myself I wasnt gonna let him go that easy .
So I didnt .
But I dont wanna hold on to something that doesnt wanna be held on to .
So I wont .
Ima call it quits today , officially .
No more calls , visits , aims , NOTHING .
Im to BEAUTIFUL , to stress over ONE when theres MORE .
So Im doneeee .
Thank you .

But what if he comes back ?

What a day .

From the VNG bitches come up to Crenshaw ,
to Tuere and Tiarra getting madd because
Im the REAL Wifeeee of Terrence Campbell .
Lmfaooooo .
Like Tuere SAID , when Sept . comes ,
WE will know where Terrence calls HOME . :-D

) :

I wanna try and stick it with you DJ .
But you seem not to want me anymore .







) : , T4 is back thoughh .